Singing Series Episode 1: Disillusioned
Performing “Disillusioned” by A Perfect Circle
Singing isn't my trade and I'm not really so naturally gifted like some amazing singers out there, but home karaoke is something I've enjoyed increasingly in the past year to be able to focus on some personal development thing, just trying to improve at the dozen or so songs that I like to do... songs that either mean something to me now or meant something to me at some point in my life (meaning: not everything I cover I might endorse fully in message with my present-day mind). Music is so fascinating, how it can bring you to a frame-of-mind you had previously held, or draw up a memory from your past.
Anyway, my new project here, of which this is just episode one, is perhaps more about me than anything for an audience, really. You may benefit more by just going straight to listening to the actual songs and just using my wonderful musical tastes for guidance =) rather than my attempt. I wanted to a karaoke cover series right out of the gate in 2023... and then I fell right back into old bad habits. Perfect is the enemy of good, and perfect is most certainly the enemy of “good enough”. This video uses my phone's microphone, unfortunately, which makes the sound a fair bit less lively sounding than it might be, and I've not EQ'd anything, etc. The singing series is going to be as raw as it needs to be just to get going and doing. I could wait forever because I am truly never fully satisfied with my own performative output (there are timing issues in my performance here, especially during the first bit... so be it... something to work on). One of the main reasons for doing this is that I also want to face up against my own stage fright in performing for others. Making a video like this has in the past has been very tough for me, as I'm usually hyper-aware of my own shortcomings in ability... and as much as I love to pretend I'm never self-conscious about what other people think, that's clearly just not entirely true, at least not about everything. But it is certainly something I am trying to further temper. I hope some of what I hear in my mind and feel in my heart when I sing translates through all the same. I believe we release the best of ourselves when we are less concerned about what's going on within the crania of others.
Anyway, these are the songs I have enjoyed listening to. These are the songs I like to sing when I'm down here in the basement/office. In no particular order... I was actually going to start with a King Crimson classic. Another day. This is my performance of “Disillusioned” by A Perfect Circle. I hope you like it.
